Goodbye

 Goodbye to stick fights in suburban streets.

Goodbye to fireflies, childhood lies, and open skies.

Goodbye to twilight travels,

guided only by mystic moonlight.


Goodbye to the temporal entrapment,

unfolding our genetic rapture.


Goodbye to all things,
Gone and Good,
Young and Wild,
Real and Fleeting.

Greetings, to the descent of our species.
Down may be up,
up may be down,
either way we are diving deeper into materiality.

Uploading oscillating brains,
splicing inter-species genomes,
Implanting nano and macro machines,
Concocting drugs to create eternal dreams.

I have felt the waves of the guiding current,
that all surges and recessions,
move with a greater wisdom,
toward our greater fulfillment,

and yet,
I want no part of what I see,
By no means, a judgement,
just an understanding it is not for me.

I'd rather find a plot,
and grow some beans,
spending my days,
however I please.

Two-Thirds Your Own

 “Active people are usually deficient in the higher activity, I mean individual activity. They are active as officials, merchants, scholars, that is as a species, but not as quite distinct separate and single individuals ; in this respect they are idle. It is the misfortune of the active that their activity is almost always a little senseless. For instance, we must not ask the money-making banker the reason of his restless activity, it is foolish. The active roll as the stone rolls, according to the stupidity of mechanics. All mankind is divided, as it was at all times and is still, into slaves and freemen; for whoever has not two-thirds of his day for himself is a slave, be he otherwise what-ever he likes, statesman, merchant, official, or scholar.” ~Friedrich Nietzsche (Book: Human All Too Human

Spotify Playlists:

 From most recent to oldest.

These can be enjoyed on shuffle, or on sequential playthrough, the order of each playlist is arbitrary.

All lists are updated about every month or so:

Autumn2020:
https://open.spotify.com/playlist/1OJM35NNjE7kD9OeiVhloE?si=S-9QHkgNS5y7NNfWE7tTSw


2020Summer:
https://open.spotify.com/playlist/3tTvTagNXBFTmqBVoVvTOZ?si=VFUjZPidR1OXbGjvHsVEpA


Do YoU eVeN mEtAl?
https://open.spotify.com/playlist/4l76AHQ5tkGmKeFDWIpvv4?si=rs7GkgTmTG2yoHCun-RmCg


Viking Music:
https://open.spotify.com/playlist/4eOtGyE7j1W34uyghmXKLw?si=5P3748J8S9e0QD8aeFM3uQ


Spring2020:
https://open.spotify.com/playlist/4o8Y9TwXy4uT1LdL0eE9Tp?si=SwoAmaQyTFinNXeoQUVFVw


AutumnFalls:
https://open.spotify.com/playlist/7GXBKGsCeZ5Sctd8iT8MCH?si=NKs5PAOBRwGow1VhtWG02g


S H A M A N:
https://open.spotify.com/playlist/5UWMA6eIvL5axjswsKWAXI?si=fWfzBnDAQuqJkoRma1esjQ


Spring Break 1899:https://open.spotify.com/playlist/1w4CNO1svM1e9znSeAaRuO?si=rht11iZWRYWIKNOvTgtRGA

Spark It Up:
https://open.spotify.com/playlist/7zyHzgIEpmBHlYXwVfy7sA?si=JJsBXQ4NR5GqIfTnqitrEA

Explorer.Reborn:
https://open.spotify.com/playlist/5UDqThzkfnY3l6sKicT32b?si=NA3PgMyyRo-bVOlGDbAqBw

Black Coffee:
https://open.spotify.com/playlist/0eKgYLltbjyt8UrEAfrAiJ?si=IpFXH4OyRsCynBoJO7BSXQ

xXx:
https://open.spotify.com/playlist/2tQIQUyBLwybmn2AF24AZl?si=DDAKHIJSRbqXyX1R-bbHhw

FPS FOCUS:
https://open.spotify.com/playlist/5aItoToEhvshviDCckXawZ?si=9lEgWs2qQcm1LKzJYD4JvQ

Arrogance Blues:
https://open.spotify.com/playlist/5mIhERPucYd93zlz758FHX?si=Z9s3_BdUStKdU9YGnInYKw

Wanderlust, the list:
https://open.spotify.com/playlist/7w6X8y8qHYCksKQfMPaKsG?si=9gK-vFiBTG2sA4m-fNqvIQ

Rally Across America:
https://open.spotify.com/playlist/5AtS6UQlseIid5CLqlAgGu?si=Z3tY1UsqSgmSKQYHcdCVUw

2020

 20 years from now,

many will long to be back,

in the year of 2020.


Darkness is coming,

grow your light.

The world will need it,

More than you know.

Pardon, didn't mean to bleed on you.

 It started with a commitment,

A promise, 

A vow:

No matter what struggles,

No matter what scenarios, 

I would never return to living the life, 

of the living dead.

I'd take homelessness 

over selling my days for a salvaging slave's wage.

The vow grew:

Committing to healing, transformation, and relaxation.

Do you know how hard it is to truly and fully relax?

Thirsting for relaxation lead to regiments of body mind and soul,

relaxation through effort,

through exhaustion,

I could find no other way.


So I stayed low,

I stayed quiet,

I did the work.

Spontaneously, without invitation or any indication from me,

friends, acquaintances, and fellow unkowns

all reached out and came to me.

Their struggles mirroring my own.


I shared:

open, clear, compassionate, striving, hoping...

Hoping I helped more than I hurt.


Despite the many miracles, the synchronicities, the progresses made...

I can't help but feel very much the same.

I still fall into this same empty, yet heavy, place.

I am still plagued by pain,

and still the only consistency I have,

is in my inconsistency.

My incongruity to the skewed systems and structures I see around me.

Conflicted in renunciation and acceptance,

individuality and community,

will and flow,

Action and acceptance,

all discrete and continuity swirling in the multitudes of the multiplicity in and around me:
truth and illusion,
love and attachment,
freedom and family,

What else do you want me to say?

Reefer As A Means Of Reverence

Awe, allows for Reverence:

    "Nothing is too trivial or second class for reverence. But it has to be demonstrated with concrete actions. Don't abuse your body — eat right, exercise, get enough rest. Don't abuse the earth by being wasteful of its gifts. Protect the environment for your neighbors and future generations.

Reverence is radical amazement, a deep feeling tinged with both mystery and wonder. Approaching the world with reverence; allow yourself to be moved beyond words."

 

    "There is one unmistakable message in the spiritual practice of reverence: because everything is touched by the sacred, everything has worth. This practice, then, builds self-esteem. 

 Its opposite is irreverence, the "dissing" of the Creation."

     "Edward says, “The natural man [that is, the savage] is capable of fear and presumption, but never of reverence; he can be superstitious or profane but never religious. In other words, he does not really look up to the power before which he trembles, or, in any sense, conceive it as a better self, with which he can identify himself, even while he bends before it. And this means that he does not in the proper sense worship at all; for he does not rise to the idea of any being who deserves the name of God, as being higher than the self and yet not a mere object or not-self” (The Evolution of Religion, vol. i, p. 179)"


The danger is the possibility of death by astonishment.” — Terence McKenna


    Solomon describes awe as passive, but reverence as active, noting that the feeling of awe (i.e., becoming awestruck) implies paralysis, whereas feelings of reverence are associated more with active engagement and responsibility toward that which one reveres.^[4] Nature, science, literature, philosophy, great philosophers, leaders, artists, art, music, wisdom, and beauty may each act as the stimulus and focus of reverence.