The Paradox between the shores of feeling and being.

 It was only after releasing myself
from the need of feeling that the world is my responsibility,
that I must fix it,
or save it,
Or at the very least, raise awareness of current conflicts and issues which need to be addressed..

For as long as I can remember I have felt this way,
The first time I blacked out drinking,
my friends said I jumped out of my drunken slumber and danced around
saying over and over and over again,
"I can't fix it, I can't fix it, I can't fix it!"

I marched, I rallied, I organized,
and it made no difference.
I raised my voice for truth and equality
and all it got me was burns and the scorn of both friends and enemies.

So when I was finally able to release myself from this... compulsive feeling,
that it opened a space within me,
a new ease.

Now.
All My Actions Sing 
AS IF
the world is my responsibility.
By My FEELINGS ARE FREE.
It permeates my entire being:
I am free.

I don't owe anyone or anything.
I am not afraid.
I can no longer be played.
I am me.
I am free.