Transmuting nightmares into dreams (11/21/25)

 I want to be set free
from bone 
from body
from God.

I do not want to be reincarnated.
I do not want to come back here,
even when it is made into a pearl of perfect majesty.

Neither do I wish to return to the glimmering source,
to return to the unity.

So what is there to do with me?

There is no place but here.
There is no time but now,
then why this great longing within me?

I do not want a car, 
a house,
a plane,
or land.
I don't want any thing

I just dont ever want to return here.
To this 3D plane,
This strange Earth game,
And yet neither do I want to return to our great home.

What do I do?
Where do I go?

I dont want to be a teacher,
a shaman,
a guide,
a healer,
All such things are the very means that keep us clinging here.
trapped in our pain,
shame,
fear,
guilt...
I dont care if I ever heal.
I just don't want to come back here.

Is the only other option void or war?
!
No.
!
There is so much more.

What is alternative to the cycle of emanation and return?

There is no where to go.
No thing to do.

I am but a grain of sand
yearning for the moon.

I am the moon,
yearning for a fool.

I am a fool,
yearning for a dream that cannot be.

I am a dream,
just yearning to be believed.